WELL HELLO

it has been quite some time since i've updated my little corner of the internet. let's just say, since i last updated 9 months ago, quite a lot has happened. i'll try to go in chronological order since that's the easiest way for me to recount everything.

in july, i began pursuing my oils biz. let me tell you guys, it has been nothing like i imagined, and i say that in the best way. it has greatly and wildly exceeded my expectations. i have joined a community and made real life best friends while educating others on cleaning up their homes and their personal care. emotional health is SO important to me since i've struggled with that in the past, and since i'm a SAHM, it only made sense i turn into a WAHM.

in september, we moved into our own little apartment. living with family was a blessing, but if you've ever been an intruder in someone else's space, you'll understand why we made the decision to move. we had moved in with my aunt and her family to save money to buy a house, but then our hearts shifted to wanting to move back to denver. we put in a request for transfer with aaron's work in june, but hadn't heard anything. with asher getting more mobile and into things, we decided it would be best to have our own little nest. it isn't the most perfect place to live, but it has been good to us. it has been the shortest commute EVER to aaron's work (10 mins or less), so that has been a huge blessing.

in november, something was feeling off with me. i wasn't quite sure what it was, but i decided to take a pregnancy test just to rule out that possibility, because there was no way i was pregnant, right?

WRONG.

i actually forgot about my test and wandered back into the bathroom where the word "Pregnant" was staring back at me. i literally thought i was going to pass out. let's just say a baby wasn't anywhere in our minds as we have been having the best time with our little man. but we are so so excited and nowhere near prepared!

oh, and we're adding another boy to this tribe at the end of july, so i'm officially outnumbered!

in december, we celebrated my baby bear's first birthday (all the crying emojis). seriously looking at that picture is insane because he already looks 5 years older and those pj's don't fit anymore. he eats and poops all. the. freaking. time. and loves to play outside! he actually sleeps through the night 99% of the time now, which has been a good break for my pregnant self.

in february, i travelled to new york for a builders retreat and you guys, i cried buckets of happy tears that weekend. God has seriously been SO good to me through this oils business.

also in february, we found out that aaron was being transferred back to denver!!!!!!

seriously all the !!!!!!

we are moving back in one month (yikes) and decided to buy a house!!!! you guys, we are seriously 3 days away from closing and i want to cry from all the brain space i'll have back! we signed closing docs today and get the keys monday!!! i feel like we've almost completed the adult initiation. actually, i'll probably never feel like an actual adult.

i know there is so much more that i've missed, but that's the gist of life over the last 9 months!

IN THE LONGING

there is sweetness in solitude. it has been sometime since i've been alone. since having asher and moving in with family, i have felt like it has been so hard to take some time for myself and just breathe. to see the sunrise, to pour out my thoughts and look at what's going on in life. i have neglected this space for sometime. i have this thing that when i feel like i "have" to do something, i have good momentum but then i feel so trapped by my commitment that i neglect it. like the 52 project? yeah, it's been about 4 weeks (i'm a terrible mom, i know). ya'll, the mom guilt hits hard all. the. time. but then i have sweet, quiet moments like this and it's all praises. God's grace is enough.

this season has been one of trials. it has been so sweet seeing asher grow and thrive, but we're in a season of limbo. aaron and i have felt a sense of longing for denver, and we have both felt God impress upon our hearts that we need to plant roots there. "but didn't you just move?" yep, and we'll probably move again. i was wondering what it is in me that makes me feel unsettled, like i can't just stay in one place. growing up in a divorced family, i have not had a "permanent" home. like, ever. sure, my parents each had their houses, but i went back and forth, week after week. i would pack a suitcase full of my necessities for school and softball and work and whatever else. but i was never really settled.

i thought this would all change when i got married. i would have my own house that would be mine. i could decorate how i wanted and create the environment and space i wanted to spend time in.

we lived in our first apartment for three months.

then, our second for 8 months. our third for 6. our fourth for 4. and our fifth for 1 year.

it brings tears to my eyes as i write about the fifth place we lived. i long for it y'all. i long for the sweetness of that time in the tiny house we called home, the tiny house we brought our baby home to. the home where i spent so many days sick as i grew my baby. the home where i have such fond memories in the city where my heart is. sometimes i wonder why God brings us to new places and new seasons. i long for the last season of life, where it was just our little family exploring the beauty of colorado and all the wonder God had for us there. why did He move us? why did we long for a change?

this season of life is hard. we're almost completely out of debt (praise!), we're saving for a house, our baby is growing around family. but what else? my marriage is going through some of the toughest growing pains yet. my husband is having a hard time at work with some difficult people. we don't have much privacy. and while living with family is great, there is nothing like having a place to call yours.

and so we wait. we wait for God to move. we wait for His leading. we wait for the revealing of His will. i know that wherever He has will be perfect. it's just so hard in this state of longing and the unknown.

F O U R . F I V E . S I X M O N T H S

Asher is 4 months old today! he is a ray of sunshine in our lives. he loves to laugh and play peek a boo. he is sleeping through the night more and more and is quite the little piglet! he constantly is talking to us--I swear he has said "hi" and "I love you" 😂he loves his baby carrier and is constantly loved on. he responds to his name and is getting the hang of teething toys. we can't wait to see what this next month will bring us! we love you ash baby!

my baby boy is 5 months old today! we had a very exciting month full of travel and new discoveries! Asher flew to Hawaii and took his first dips in both the pool and Pacific Ocean. he would laugh every time a wave crashed, it was seriously the cutest! he loves his jumperoo and scoots himself around when he's on his tummy; I think we have an early crawler on our hands. he tried cereal for the first time and LOVES it! as always, he's our happy and giggly baby, and loves being tickled. oh, and he FOR SURE said the word "yeah" this month! I can't believe how quick time is flying! we love you Asher!

Asher is 6 months old today! I truly cannot believe how quickly that flew by. we have spent half a year with this sweet soul and we never knew how much we could love someone. he is weighing in at a whopping 19 pounds (that's a 2 pound weight gain in a month) and has popped his first tooth and working on the second. ash loves eating peas and green beans and is trying zucchini this week. he is such a sweetie and laughs all the time! he loves being surrounded by family and is celebrating big today at Disneyland! we love you baby bear!

HAWAII 2016

we went to maui in april of this year (yep, i know it's june) and we had a great time. asher was a rockstar on the flight there and for most of the flight home, and loved being on vacation (except for the humidity, my little man hates being hot!) he went into the pool and ocean for the first time and slept like a champ (i was stressed about the time change). we didn't do much except eat too much food and go to the pool and beach. it was just such a nice time to be away from regular life and be together as a family. i'm definitely missing vacation right about now as asher is literally the WORST sleeper of life right now.

 

EASTER 2016

easter 2016 was one for the books. we went to easter service, out to lunch for some mexican food and just spent the day soaking up all the life and grace God has given us. this year, resurrection sunday was extra special for me because of my baby bear. i can't wait to see him grow in Christ and learn how the Savior of the world loves him.

this little man is my favorite. to see his joy for life is infectious. my mama heart is so full because of him.